How?

I opened my social media, I saw my friends with her life full of bliss, surrounding by good friends, exchanging gifts to celebrate Ied Fitr, and having presents in her birthday. In another time with another friend, I saw an article in one of the biggest news platform which is well written, she made it really good, showing that she already prepared with her knowledge. Well done. Another picture I saw again, one of my friend with her little family, she is LPDP awardee, but can maintain her life happily with her loved ones.

Sometimes I feel like..aahh.. did I waste my time too much? I lose my appetite to read books, even it's just a light novel that I used to like. All my life is only between work and home. Everyday I just try to finish my work and go home and then go to sleep and repeat. So where's the challenges? Where's the knowledge? Where's my social life?

Idk, whether my social media has poisoned my brain, so I always feel that I'm not okay where it's actually fine, or I'm really too snug in my comfort zone that I know it will not last forever so I have to wake up and and do something more useful. I become dumber and dumber.

If I think deeply about it, I know that I'm fine. Living with my husband is somewhat the best thing happened in my life (eventhough it means saying goodbye to my dream living overseas), but it's just not me 4-6 years ago.

What should I do?
What happened to me?